wad is life measured by?

by the amount of money u have in ur bank account?
by the number of friends u have?
by the number of people who adore you?
by the number of chicks / dude u've slept with?
by the number of crazy things u've done?

WHAT?!

does it really all boil down what god has put in ur life and what you've done with it?
what is the purpose of life?
to succeed?
to be happy?
to be rich?

WHAT?!

how do u get into a relationship with god?
how do u know if its really him speaking to you?
is religion jus a comfort in knowing u'd go to a better safe?
is it jus humans making stories so u have false sense of hope?

WHAT?!

i feel as though i'm backsliding so fast and so hard.

would your life change if u had a relationship with god? how?
would i have to give up things?
whatif i dun wan to?
doesnt it mean i'm not ready or i dun wan the relationship?
will god compromise?

i believe yet i don't

why?
did i lose faith?
did i lose hope?
did i lose perspective?

how?
my move?
has it been ongoing?
den it hits the breaking point?
did i jus hold on cuz it was the textbook thing to do?

WHAT?!

now what do i do?
am i the only one who get myself out of this?
is there anyone out there?

HOPE ANYONE?
YourName | 8:24 AM